how we met - part 2

I decided to write a record of what I remember about my early relationship with Tyler.  I am already forgetting so much, and I want to capture as many of the memories as possible.  I also want my kids to be able to read it, when and if they ever become more curious about it.  I know Tyler would tell it differently, but to me, this is how we met  -

part .5 here
part 1 here



He told me he loved me.  We had never even gone on a date.  But our friendship had been long and great, and while I wasn't exactly surprised, I didn't feel the same way.

I went home that night and talked to my roommate.  I didn't tell her what happened, I don't think, but I believe I said I could never marry Tyler.  That's a pretty telling thing to say, isn't it, because it means that I had given it some thought, right?  I thought I couldn't be with him.  I'd seen him in the other relationship, and I thought he wasn't the guy for me.


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I packed my things and readied for my move.  My mom and I were going to travel up to Provo on the same day, and attend my older brother's graduation from BYU Law school.  I spent a lot of time with my special friends, and enjoyed that last couple of weeks with them.  I had mixed feelings about leaving, but I'd prayed about it a lot.  I really felt like it was right for me.

Sometime in that week before we left, I went on a date with Tyler.  I don't remember what we did, or where we went.  I know at some point during this time, we held hands.  I also know he wanted to kiss me, but I didn't let that happen.  There were lots of reasons, but me leaving soon was a big one.


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The night before I left two things happened. I kissed Tyler.  And Tyler stayed up all night making me a cd.  It was full of BeeGees sappy love songs.  I hated it.  Kind of.  Also, I kind of loved it.

I left early that morning, with a walkie-talkie in my car, and one in my mom's.  We talked every once in awhile, and followed each other up to Provo.  I cried almost the whole way, and I wasn't sure why.  I wanted to move, I wanted this change.  And I didn't feel sure about Tyler at all.  I'd already had two very serious (to me) relationships end suddenly and unexpectedly in the last 6 months.  It was so hard.

But there I was in my car, hour after hour, just crumbling and being sad.


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Remember that first guy I dated in this story?  The one I grew up knowing?  He helped me find a new apartment in Provo when I found out the one we'd planned on was pretty horrible.  And he took me out a few times. We were just good friends, but I could tell we could easily fall back into our old relationship. One night we went out to eat at Olive Garden, where he worked, and saw another of our friends from our ward growing up, who was pretty happy to see us together.  After dinner we headed back to my apartment.  As we sat down on the couch, the phone rang.

It was Tyler.